Many artists describe their work as an exploration that may reference a particular subject matter or idea, created in a way that reflects a thoughtful and studied approach. I try to work at not knowing what I'm doing. During many years of painting I have gained a certain pattern of understanding and judgment that is at odds with my hope of exploring unseen areas. It is the letting go of this accumulated knowledge and decision making process that I find necessary to be in that place where I am most capable of not knowing what I'm doing. To separate myself from my experience is foolish, but to see it as not relevant to making future judgments is required.
Two years ago I experienced a great loss,
and as a consequence of this major life change I reevaluated many of my beliefs
and understandings. I consider the work I do to be of the highest value to me,
and yet at the time I am painting it is essential for me to know that it really
is of no value at all; that it really doesn't matter. Since the loss I have
felt a sense of release from many old attitudes and judgments and it occurs
to me that now it really doesn't matter. That sense of release has opened the
way to my being in that place of not knowing what I'm doing, and I believe that
this body of work represents that (not) knowing.